刚刚就要开始读《许三观卖血记》的第二十八章了，全书也已经到了高潮。隐隐已经感觉得到最后的结局了。一种苍凉的感觉从心底生出来，慢慢的浸透了全身。仿佛有一块巨石压在胸口，仿佛有千言万语无法表达出来。我已经就要没有勇气再看下去了。
许三观是一个乐观的人。虽然他没有多少文化，在前面充满着轻喜剧的氛围里，他平稳的生活了几十年。
通过第一次卖血，他结了婚。娶上了一房称心如意的老婆。然后的十年里，过得非常的平稳。虽然，他也认为一乐不是自己的亲生儿子；虽然，他也知道自己的老婆还有那么一段。这些，他都忍受了下来，而且用非常阿Q的精神，乐观得面对着这一切。
然而，随着卖血的次数的增多。卖血的理由也越来越多。时代在变化，究竟是时代的变化，才造成了他的悲剧。还是其他的原因呢？也许没有人说得明白，但是，伟大的人的一句话，改变了多少人的生活呢。那么多的平凡的人，在这样的历史的洪流中，无奈的挣扎着。却不知道为什么会这样。
也许小说是为了高潮得到来而设计了这么多的坎坷。可是，当时代的重负反映在一个家庭的时候，家庭的渺小是多么显而易见的。
还有两个人，一个是根龙，一个是阿方。根龙最后卖血死掉了。许三观卖次见到它们都是在卖血站。阿方身体不好，再见面的的时候已经显得很老了。他解释是\'乡下人显老，要是城里人，四十五岁看上去就像三十多岁。\'再见根龙时，阿方已经卖血把身体\'败掉\'了，根龙看这也很老了。而且\'样子全变了。\'根龙说：：\'我们乡下人辛苦，所以人显的老。\'
更进一步的，许三观在别人看来，\'样子也变了很多\'，可是许三观自己和家人却没有发现呢。
许三观卖血的次数，第一次，卖完之后娶了媳妇。第二次，为了赎回别人拿走的东西。第三次，第四次。当一次次的卖血解决了许三观一次次的问题后，他发现这是一个十分而又没有办法的办法。虽然他明知道，卖身也不能卖血。卖血就是卖命。开始的时候，还是有一定的节制，到了最后，当卖血成为唯一的选择，当卖血已经成为一种习惯时，许三观已经讲一切都抛至脑后了。在他的心目中，为了家庭、为了妻子、为了儿子，明知道卖血就像吸毒一样的行为，可是不这样，他还有别的选择吗？
到底是时代在选择我们，还是我们在创造时代。
结局出乎我的意料，是一个可以说非常完美的结局。这多少让我有些失望。我不是冷血的人，但是我认为只有结局才是最让人受震撼的地方。这个完美的结局多少冲淡了前面给我带来的震撼。不知道作者的想法，是为了迎合某些人的意见呢？还是真的时代就是这样的反映呢？
最后，不论是许三观的家庭，还是其他的一切，都恢复了昔日的平静。可是，昔日的平静下就真的没有不合理的东西吗？也许不尽然吧。很多的不正常的东西，在日积月累中慢慢变成了习惯，当有些人认识到时，却发现自己才是这个世界里最孤独的人。没有人同意他的观点，一如卖血可以挣钱，又有谁计较卖血的人是否在卖命呢？
心中有很多的想法，但是并不能如实的表达出来。所谓词不达意大抵就是这样的吧。虽然时时是可以感到文章给我带来的震撼，却无法将它转化为语言表达出来。心中非常的郁闷。久而久之成为一个心结，成为一种挥之不去的惆怅。
像我这样生在70年代末期的人，对于之前的事情总是模糊的。可是我偏偏对于文革这段历史非常的感兴趣。于是，每次看到小说里有这段历史的故事，看的都是非常的仔细。看了这么多的小说，终于想到一个问题，原来写文革好的作者大都是60年代的生人。而我这样的人，最好的时代就是描写80年吧。
实际上通过《许三观卖血记》和《活着》可以发现，余华的所描写的主角都是他的父辈一代的人。而我的父亲的经历是多么好的一部小说呢。余华的世界都是在农村，是他熟悉这样的环境呢？还是他个人的一种风格呢？我是不是也应该想好这个问题，然后才可以开始写小说啦

Yu Hua is a literary legend in China ,and in 2002 he became the first Chinese writer to win the prestigious James Joyce Award. His novels To Live and Chronicle of a Blood Merchant have been named as two of the top ten most influential books in China during the last decade. In Chronicle of a Blood Merchant, the people of China are under the reign of Chairman Mao, and Hua presents an unflinching portrait of life for the Chinese during Chairman Mao’s reign.
Xu Sanguan is your typical Chinese factory worker and the protagonist in Chronicle of a Blood Merchant. Xu Sanguan works in a silk factory, where he pushes a cart and distributes silk worms to the other factory workers. Similar to the jobs of others, his is not well-paying and the work is tedious. However, Xu Sanguan has no other options to make money, and he has to make a living to survive. While he works at the factory, Xu Yulan, a pretty young woman who sells fried dough on the street, catches his eye. Xu Yulan is known as the “Fried Dough Queen” for her beauty and vivacious nature. Although Xu Yulan is being courted by another man, Xe Xiaoyong, Xu Sanguan convinces Xu Yulan’s father to agree to a marriage between Xu Yulan and Xu Sanguan.
Years later, Xu Sanguan and Xu Yulan are well into their marriage and they have three sons, Yile, Erle and Sanle. Xu Sanguan’s expanded family puts increased demands upon him to provide food and shelter. His increased obligations and his country’s Cultural Revolution press against him as he struggles to provide food and shelter for his family. Xu Sanguan decides to visit the “blood chief” at the local hospital, where he sells his blood for an amount of money that is much greater than his meager pay at the silk factory. Selling blood is a potentially lethal proposition, but Xu Sanguan feels forced to take this risk in order to support his family.
Over the years, Xu Sanguan’s family continues to have their normal needs for food and shelter, but a famine strikes their country and Xu Sanguan once again is forced to sell blood. His family is starving and they rise only twice day from their beds to consume watery rations of corn gruel. While Xu Sanguan sells his blood to take his family out for a proper meal, he refuses to allow Yile to join them. Yile is the eldest son, but it is determined that Yile is a bastard. Yile’s real father is Xe Xiaoyong, the man who was courting Xu Yulan shortly before Xu Yulan’s marriage to Xu Sanguan. Xu Sanguan’s sense of honor is crushed when he learns that he is a “cuckold” for raising a bastard for over nine years. The dynamics of the family continue to change throughout the novel. Xu Sanguan, Xu Yulan and the three sons struggle to survive throughout their country’s turbulent changes. Xu Sanguan’s relationship with Yile is tested and changes over time. Xu Sanguan risks his own life to save Yile and comes to learn that “blood money” will not only pay debts, it will forgive them, too.
Chronicle of a Blood Merchant is emotionally intense and provides the reader with a gripping view of reality for the Chinese and their struggle to survive during their country’s upheaval and changes. In a society that has learned to be circumspect, hostile and is impoverished, author Yu Hua provides an intense backdrop for a heartfelt, intense story of a common Chinese family’s survival and growth. While the reviewer suspects that some of Yu Hua’s literary talents were unable to be “carried over” in the translation of Chronicle of a Blood Merchant from Chinese to English, the book is engrossing and clearly is another literary achievement for Yu Hua.